love and pain

(story # 4)

……i love Taylor Swift since last year and i know that one of the jonas bros has taken her heart but i was like “quebz..” i don’t find them cute and they look like a bunch of babies for me.. they are not men enough (haha).. but just recently, my cousin accidentally downloaded one of their songs (when you look me in the eyes) in my phone and i was like hooked!! ug sa dihang gi-RT (ringtone) jud dayon ang show.. haha!! and i find myself listening to this song everyday.. (yeah, it is already a sickness.. hihi.. and the words of the song make me fall over and over and over.. the songwriter has gone down deep to the very core of my heart.. haha!! i just love this song to the nth power!)
and right now is my RD.. .. and it is so freakin boring so while listening to this song, i find myself making some crappy mugna2x story again.. hhmmm…

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Her hair is still damp from shower but she is already sweating. And the conversation heats up. He is breathing heavily now and those eyes that are once so tender, look cold at this moment. She can’t meet his gaze. She wet her lips and said in a voice almost a whisper “I don’t wanna sound insensitive but i just think it is for the best.” And then there was a long silence… so silent that it is beginning to make her deaf. It is as if life has been slowly sucked out from her. she took a deep breath and added “..I am doing this for you.. for us..” her voice trailed off…
And then he cursed and said “seriously, do you expect me to believe that?!” She can see his jaw hardened as he added “if being us really means something to you.. then you should at least be honest.. you owe it to me.. ” He must have been so furious right now and her heart aches with the thought that she is actually hurting the one guy her whole being has been in love with.. her heart aches even more with the thought that he thinks she just lead him on when in reality, he is even the only person she can think of day in, day out.
She can feel hot tears heading their way down her face. GOD! How she wants to hug this guy right now so tight and make the moment freeze forever but she can’t. And that is the fact that she has to live with. She has to stay away. She has to pull herself together and be firm. She swallowed hard before saying “I don’t expect you to understand right now but my decision is final..” Her voice cracked. OMG! This won’t do. She is on the verge of breaking down. She has to walk away right now while she still can. But as she turned away, he caught her arm and he made her face him. He tilted her head to meet his gaze. She closed her eyes.. she does not want him to see right through her. And as she keeps her eyes shut, she heard him say “I need you..because i love you..” And when he hugged her so tight, she can take it no more. She hugged him back and said nothing. She said nothing.. she just hugged him back and she knew.. she can never leave him.. ever…

—– ug sa dihang mao ra to.. boW! hhmm, gikapoy nako huna2x unsa sunod.. ending na to.. hihi