Together with some of my friends.. we had that card reading thingy again with that very old lady we fondly call as 'nanay'... she really looks scary sometimes but she's amazing because she can tell things really and 200php for my friends is so sulit because they will be smiling afterwards but me?? f*ck..! for the nth time, the readings are all the same. He is not for me because of a certain someone.. "dili jud mo magka-kamo day kay naa jud tawo na moabot.." she cannot say if that 'moabot' person is to his life or mine.. for the record, i have no bf right now because i can see only him, even if someone comes along and courts me, and even if that someone is cuter than him, they still pale in comparison..i just can see only him (go0dness! unsa kaha ni mata nako noh na dli man unta xa super kagwapohan.. mas efo pa gani si *** na so into evog nako, napuno na gani ko sa chocolates..huhu ) so i think that "moabot person" must be sa iya life and not mine (i wish that moabot person is sa ako life..but will it be na xa ra man jud ako makita oi..waaah!!! and he is in guadalupe right now.. tempting to make adto..hmmm..but for what? Everytime he talks to me, i cannot say anything..my mind will always go completely blank..i cannot even look him straight in the eye..i am such a total loser..carms, can you for once become flirty and be a real bitch!! matiguwamg dalaga jud ka..waahhh) is there a girl whom he likes? is dating? tried so hard to find out if he is seeing someone but sources say he is not.. and no one can tell whom he likes... but nanay is really adamant.. so be it, fact is, that girl he likes is not me.. and how my heart feels like being squeezed and torn into bits. f*ck this heart of mine... so freakin selfish.. this heart does not want to make me happy at all.. Why do you have to like someone who cannot even see you? You try so hard to make yourself nice but he cannot even notice the slightest bit of your existence.
"She's everywhere I wanna be
Who's that girl?
Where's she from?
No she can't be the one
That you want
That has stolen my world
It's not real, it's not right
It's my day, it's my night
By the way
Who's that girl living my life?"
Where's she from?
No she can't be the one
That you want
That has stolen my world
It's not real, it's not right
It's my day, it's my night
By the way
Who's that girl living my life?"
GOD.. look down and see me cry..
My being an 'addict' to some celebs like Wu Zun, Jared and even Naruto really helps.. i think there will come a day when i will see him and i have to pinch myself because even 1 bit of liking towards him in my bone can no longer be felt...
I will just have to believe in that reality and hopefully it'll happen someday..
But right now, at this very moment... this question is in me.. circulating in my system.. 'Who's that girl....?'
My being an 'addict' to some celebs like Wu Zun, Jared and even Naruto really helps.. i think there will come a day when i will see him and i have to pinch myself because even 1 bit of liking towards him in my bone can no longer be felt...
I will just have to believe in that reality and hopefully it'll happen someday..
But right now, at this very moment... this question is in me.. circulating in my system.. 'Who's that girl....?'
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